Wednesday, November 18, 2015
Problem
They are getting sick pretending to torture my possible future kids and maim and disfigure them figuratively.
Spoiled Punishers
Every time I get upset, people change a feature of a major social networking site.
Looks
It's funny that if I looked symmetrical and extra-bulbous or glowing or something that I'd be called the N word.
Problems
I don't know who's doing this, I guess, but connected to Ellen DeGeneres I see Twitch got a tattoo that has something in common with my name.
...Once, Ellen DeGeneres was upset and plaqued 2 seats in her audience. She seems 1/2 asleep.. "Oh, I must punish sometimes, be nice sometimes." Actually, if you don't bother anyone/do anything illegal, nothing bad should happen, and if it's a mistake nothing is supposed to happen, neither. Clearly, I don't do anything...
I did get upset in private and acted like everyone else gets to judging what Ellen DeGeneres is to us. I made the decision definitive, like 2nd nature, that I knew it was something weird and a mistake.
I don't think I need anyone to do these things to me. I got the vibe that my dad was bad to me, but something bad was done to him that hurt me.
I really have no problems. I'm clearly a normal person who appreciates weird things. I don't know what's up. Over-perfectionism combined with "passing judgement." I know all this writing and stuff isn't important over people being happy, living an honest life.
Something else I wanted to talk about, but I forgot now.
All I can think is poor Twitch. Maybe, he has a king chess piece and his wife the queen as tattoos because they are on top of the world. Who knows?
I don't like how this is a game that I'm atypical if I get mad when Ellen DeGeneres seems condescending.
Anyway, so why did Twitch get a tattoo?
I was upset I guess, but I didn't mean any harm. Hard to write this. I just feel uncomfortable or wonder about it as something inappropriate how it could possibly connect.
F.Y.I. something special is Johnny Depp gets an Ellen tattoo every time he is on Ellen. You know, when I was younger these things opened up to me, I wasn't scum under the crease of the underside of Ellen DeGeneres's shoe, aha ha. I feel it's unfair I have been wanting to act but got bothered. 21. Now 29. I feel I'm nothing cuz I'm not famous.
I'm applying to agencies, but I feel dumb cuz it's so hard to get in shape. I know I have to wait for January to get a shelf to organize my room more but have a plan for the meantime. It just helps so much.
Look what I get for watching Ellen. It's not "in part for viewers like you." It's work. She pretends to be big and bad like things we think are right are wrong. Maybe, people have a soft spot or vulnerability. She already says she doesn't have to live under her own scrutiny.
It's funny people without kids think they don't sacrifice.. I don't have kids as of now tho sorry I am not in m******** just saying. It's like everything is for your own kids, but kids and not me freely roam around socializing without racism.
I'm sorry if this sound sarcastic. I am not writing this to Ellen DeGeneres but to "seek help." Why should she read underdeveloped thoughts like this, anyway? Practice! If someone on her caliber read it, I'd say they were good readers.
So, this post seems kinda pointless.. Does anyone know tho about the issue of Twitch getting a tattoo? Does he really want it?
I am not some object to be played with. I don't need any discipline! I'm already nice. I know life. I'm an adult. What about other adults? Here I am! Here I am! Tell me why I'm not worth anything. I'm ready to discuss it before its stench reaches someone who's of a high social caliber.
So, you probably inferred thoughts that seemed to touch my thinking, but I'm just saying it's kinda weird and doesn't make sense for Twitch. I realize you can piece it out, but in the end it sounds like people's punishments. I did find a reason, as I said. He didn't say why he got it, which may or may not seem funny.
I feel kinda bad for talking about it and getting upset to myself, losing control of my thoughts. It seems harder being an experiment. What am I gonna do about things like this, tho? This one was really weird. It's hard to know why it seems weird, but it seems a bad outcome would result if Twitch doesn't really like it.
About it seeming like I'm in trouble, it seems like a delayed move. I really only get upset when people are mean to me. I don't go attacking people. I know how to avoid and ignore people, too. I don't want to be bad. Why get in trouble for other people hurting you? and you feel the appropriate way to feel, upset.
I'm thinking of all the people out there and wonder about people with benefits and it just seems we need to take a deep breath and be nice. I don't mean this in a bad way, like "trying to be smart." I just can't get why one person is worth it and one person is not. I know I struggle with my diet and exercise, but I do some of it. I think I've lodged 2 forms on cancer somewhere orbing within my skull. It seems small, maybe like a (flat) mole/s instead of lots of freckles.
I'm worried this is gonna be "taken the wrong way.." It's funny the things I'm drawn to write about. I can't seem to find closure to this, like saying why I said it. It was because it bothered me, but that's not what I wrote about specifically.
Do you think Ellen DeGeneres is "just sitting there" dishing out things that significantly affect me in a negative way? I'm not being sarcastic. Should I think I'm in trouble? Shouldn't I feel sorry for Twitch? So it's because I deserve to be punished? No one just feels sorry for me feeling bad in Orlando with no one I can get close to other than my parents, which is one reason I live with them but at age 29, tho it's cuz I wanna act actually too. I dunno, the people here I feel for. I've grown to be attracted to them.
So, it's about me being in trouble because I get upset when people are mean to me. Any ideas? Before something bad happens? Why doesn't anyone tell me these things? I'm already good like my parents said. I know my parents sometimes want me to shut away.
Well, Twitch, enjoy your tattoo! Oh, also, it looks like a key. If you don't like it, well. It seems he does, for now..
I wonder why my dad thinks I should be punished innocent. I disagree with this. He's always seemed to feel this way. It seems life was too hard for me, too, but I was a nice person.
Closing: I don't mean this in a sarcastic way. I'm just concerned about others + expressing something that seemed it needed to be dealt with. I also mentioned I think all this writing isn't worth it if not for the good of others 1st.
...Once, Ellen DeGeneres was upset and plaqued 2 seats in her audience. She seems 1/2 asleep.. "Oh, I must punish sometimes, be nice sometimes." Actually, if you don't bother anyone/do anything illegal, nothing bad should happen, and if it's a mistake nothing is supposed to happen, neither. Clearly, I don't do anything...
I did get upset in private and acted like everyone else gets to judging what Ellen DeGeneres is to us. I made the decision definitive, like 2nd nature, that I knew it was something weird and a mistake.
I don't think I need anyone to do these things to me. I got the vibe that my dad was bad to me, but something bad was done to him that hurt me.
I really have no problems. I'm clearly a normal person who appreciates weird things. I don't know what's up. Over-perfectionism combined with "passing judgement." I know all this writing and stuff isn't important over people being happy, living an honest life.
Something else I wanted to talk about, but I forgot now.
All I can think is poor Twitch. Maybe, he has a king chess piece and his wife the queen as tattoos because they are on top of the world. Who knows?
I don't like how this is a game that I'm atypical if I get mad when Ellen DeGeneres seems condescending.
Anyway, so why did Twitch get a tattoo?
I was upset I guess, but I didn't mean any harm. Hard to write this. I just feel uncomfortable or wonder about it as something inappropriate how it could possibly connect.
F.Y.I. something special is Johnny Depp gets an Ellen tattoo every time he is on Ellen. You know, when I was younger these things opened up to me, I wasn't scum under the crease of the underside of Ellen DeGeneres's shoe, aha ha. I feel it's unfair I have been wanting to act but got bothered. 21. Now 29. I feel I'm nothing cuz I'm not famous.
I'm applying to agencies, but I feel dumb cuz it's so hard to get in shape. I know I have to wait for January to get a shelf to organize my room more but have a plan for the meantime. It just helps so much.
Look what I get for watching Ellen. It's not "in part for viewers like you." It's work. She pretends to be big and bad like things we think are right are wrong. Maybe, people have a soft spot or vulnerability. She already says she doesn't have to live under her own scrutiny.
It's funny people without kids think they don't sacrifice.. I don't have kids as of now tho sorry I am not in m******** just saying. It's like everything is for your own kids, but kids and not me freely roam around socializing without racism.
I'm sorry if this sound sarcastic. I am not writing this to Ellen DeGeneres but to "seek help." Why should she read underdeveloped thoughts like this, anyway? Practice! If someone on her caliber read it, I'd say they were good readers.
So, this post seems kinda pointless.. Does anyone know tho about the issue of Twitch getting a tattoo? Does he really want it?
I am not some object to be played with. I don't need any discipline! I'm already nice. I know life. I'm an adult. What about other adults? Here I am! Here I am! Tell me why I'm not worth anything. I'm ready to discuss it before its stench reaches someone who's of a high social caliber.
So, you probably inferred thoughts that seemed to touch my thinking, but I'm just saying it's kinda weird and doesn't make sense for Twitch. I realize you can piece it out, but in the end it sounds like people's punishments. I did find a reason, as I said. He didn't say why he got it, which may or may not seem funny.
I feel kinda bad for talking about it and getting upset to myself, losing control of my thoughts. It seems harder being an experiment. What am I gonna do about things like this, tho? This one was really weird. It's hard to know why it seems weird, but it seems a bad outcome would result if Twitch doesn't really like it.
About it seeming like I'm in trouble, it seems like a delayed move. I really only get upset when people are mean to me. I don't go attacking people. I know how to avoid and ignore people, too. I don't want to be bad. Why get in trouble for other people hurting you? and you feel the appropriate way to feel, upset.
I'm thinking of all the people out there and wonder about people with benefits and it just seems we need to take a deep breath and be nice. I don't mean this in a bad way, like "trying to be smart." I just can't get why one person is worth it and one person is not. I know I struggle with my diet and exercise, but I do some of it. I think I've lodged 2 forms on cancer somewhere orbing within my skull. It seems small, maybe like a (flat) mole/s instead of lots of freckles.
I'm worried this is gonna be "taken the wrong way.." It's funny the things I'm drawn to write about. I can't seem to find closure to this, like saying why I said it. It was because it bothered me, but that's not what I wrote about specifically.
Do you think Ellen DeGeneres is "just sitting there" dishing out things that significantly affect me in a negative way? I'm not being sarcastic. Should I think I'm in trouble? Shouldn't I feel sorry for Twitch? So it's because I deserve to be punished? No one just feels sorry for me feeling bad in Orlando with no one I can get close to other than my parents, which is one reason I live with them but at age 29, tho it's cuz I wanna act actually too. I dunno, the people here I feel for. I've grown to be attracted to them.
So, it's about me being in trouble because I get upset when people are mean to me. Any ideas? Before something bad happens? Why doesn't anyone tell me these things? I'm already good like my parents said. I know my parents sometimes want me to shut away.
Well, Twitch, enjoy your tattoo! Oh, also, it looks like a key. If you don't like it, well. It seems he does, for now..
I wonder why my dad thinks I should be punished innocent. I disagree with this. He's always seemed to feel this way. It seems life was too hard for me, too, but I was a nice person.
Closing: I don't mean this in a sarcastic way. I'm just concerned about others + expressing something that seemed it needed to be dealt with. I also mentioned I think all this writing isn't worth it if not for the good of others 1st.
Issue
People are nice to white/racist people, but with me I get treated badly racially and it's so important to others. They don't get in trouble for things they didn't do.
Wondering
I feel cool popular famous people bargain with me that I have to accept being mistreated or I'm off the fan list. I am not talking in extreme, just something I'm wondering. I guess other people won't go thru this.. and if they do will get more sympathy/feel less pain possibly, unless they want to show me off. I am happy like before. I like to watch others. Why look for ways to make me feel in trouble, tho? I mean, is there some way we can just get to the goal so I can live my once successful life? The problem is I like lots of things and it takes too much time to be sharp. I might still be developing as a person "what" I am. What's the good in minoring in an art and majoring in thinking major?
There are celebrities I am jealous of. Why not go full out and try to be a famous performing artist?
There are celebrities I am jealous of. Why not go full out and try to be a famous performing artist?
Problem
My dad runs into me in a way to annoy me and makes gestures of messing with certain parts. You know, if I feel upset and he thinks I need to be punished outright.
I know this for a fact. I come in and am positive initially the 1st time, but there's always some problem for me like it doesn't matter and I have no life.
You know what my teachers encouraged?
That you're not supposed to enjoy if you should interact with them.
Correlations
My dad made a simple mistake. He noticed I had a problem and assumed my mom could have it, too, without thinking.
Change of Times
They are going back and saying my generation didn't deserve to supposedly have it all.
They just have nothing to do and are too embarrassed at what they did.
I notice some people fight or fight others together about if you should look more or less detailed with fine points or be more one big force of energy.
They just have nothing to do and are too embarrassed at what they did.
I notice some people fight or fight others together about if you should look more or less detailed with fine points or be more one big force of energy.
Problems
They are acting triumphant when my thoughts unravel so I can't figure anything without them cutting me off.
They are also suggesting weird ideas.
They are also suggesting weird ideas.
Someone/Some people secretly say I'm Viet, Filipino, not Caucasian, etc. Also, Ellen DeGeneres is in on it and has fueled some of it.
I don't care about any excuses that develop.
I don't care about any excuses that develop.
Problem
My dad is ruining the family. He keeps being so mean to me and won't accept it. He lets off acting like he's white and I'm not and I can't prove he just acted that way, like making sounds at the table.
Problem
They're all saying I don't matter and taking possible relationships from me. They're pounding it in like I "need to be punished."
Problem
Supposedly, Ellen DeGeneres is getting people to try to make me accept I'm another/bad race. I thought it was funny to socialize with other multiracials, and I can see her finding humor in my seeing it in that light. I keep getting pounded on by her "messengers."
Problem
People pester me about getting mad, but they don't believe me when I say why. I know that. Why not mind their own business?
Problem
They keep getting at me talking at me when I'm quiet in private.
They find big problems with small things.
They find big problems with small things.
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
1 Direction did a cool show! They seemed like smart guys, with nice manners. Their music was cool.
The little Irish karate girl was so cool! She had a sword she twirled and did gymnastics.
The little Irish karate girl was so cool! She had a sword she twirled and did gymnastics.
Apology
About that Twitter remark.. I'm losing my mind! I must have lost touch with reality. Still, proves how inappropriate I've become on the inside.
Tomfoolery
I haven't done anything that invites you to make a spectacle of about me. Just keep digging thru the years?
I know what happens if you manipulate all corners/multiple facets of my life. In the end, it's stalking behavior and effects.
You're so gifted you can see into me driving a garbage truck cuz hey ain't nothing wrong with that.
I know what happens if you manipulate all corners/multiple facets of my life. In the end, it's stalking behavior and effects.
You're so gifted you can see into me driving a garbage truck cuz hey ain't nothing wrong with that.
Depressing
I'm not really here to bide time until my own d**th or whatever else it could be while you "play" around with me, basically..
"Bad Guys"
They keep "flipping" me off saying if I say I was indeed good then I am just prejudiced to mean people. They think it's a laughing point of genius. They just cut me off like a gust of wind.
Daring Beahvior
I was fine before this experiment thing started. I don't need to learn manners at age 29. It's not my fault if I need to employ myself to relearn them.
What the Core of My Frustration Is..
Being bothered when I am alone with little ticks that for some reason sound like phrases.
Being bothered every time I see my parents.
Being bothered by famous people or others in media/social media.
What Doesn't Make Sense
My basic loss of social freedom and courtesy.
Being bothered every time I see my parents.
Being bothered by famous people or others in media/social media.
What Doesn't Make Sense
My basic loss of social freedom and courtesy.
Funny How This Got Me Nowhere
Music, better than Business, for me now.
Do you mean to say everyone I lay eyes on who is attractive is reserved material suddenly?
Do you mean to say everyone I lay eyes on who is attractive is reserved material suddenly?
Put the kids in the other room for a second and enjoy the trailer for @RebelWilson’s new movie #HowToBeSingle
https://t.co/cjBTTWTmhE
— Ellen DeGeneres (@TheEllenShow) November 18, 2015
Well, judging from recent events and fame, I see what's important to you. If something important does not matter, I tend to lose interest in other things.
I see you've made a web with the entire world, like Tim Burton and Johnny Depp who've basically retired.
(No offense, anyone. I just went a little wild and was mad on the inside about some things.)
Issue
Is it time to open up and be honest about how you hate me?
I see a lotta people who like me. I don't see why this should matter, then. "There's a party, and I wasn't invited."
I see a lotta people who like me. I don't see why this should matter, then. "There's a party, and I wasn't invited."
Problem
Why did you make such a big deal about me cursing on my own blog after it was justified it was controversial?
It's been a few years.
If people want me to behave a certain way, why are they just getting at me for the reasons I listed in the Problems tab of my blog?
It's been a few years.
If people want me to behave a certain way, why are they just getting at me for the reasons I listed in the Problems tab of my blog?
Problem
They're manipulating my life. I can't seem to communicate with anyone genuinely. It's been 10 years, tho.
Problem
They're acting like nothing just happened and I'm bad and can't improve my life maybe in a way.
Contest
Is there a contest that might still be on when you were born, that whoever wins wins regardless of age?
Being Loners
When you see someone come up on stage, are you really "happy to see them.." I feel the world is a little lonely.
Mouth Sore
I doesn't seem precancerous.
I started brushing my teeth like 5 times a day and try to remember mouth wash when flossing.
It doesn't hurt when I eat, anymore. 1st, lining of skin in my mouth fell off.
I just got a soft toothbrush and soft floss. I also started brushing my tongue.
I've smoked 2 cigarettes and a few vapor samples.
Ulcer!
I started brushing my teeth like 5 times a day and try to remember mouth wash when flossing.
It doesn't hurt when I eat, anymore. 1st, lining of skin in my mouth fell off.
I just got a soft toothbrush and soft floss. I also started brushing my tongue.
I've smoked 2 cigarettes and a few vapor samples.
Ulcer!
Saw My Therapist
She says my dad can't be racist to his family cuz it's basically stupid. He married and he created.
Ha Ha Ha Ha
Ellen DeGeneres struggled as a baby with her accent, no offense very cute.
I can hear it..
I can hear it..
Problem
They keep bothering me.. trying to make me the guilty one. I want them to stop, but they are being rude, acting like they are someone else annoying me. They keep acting like they are hurting my possible future kids.
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